Let’s Get Real

So I want to get real about what I am trying to do. I am 54 with a full time career in a corporate setting as a Regional lead in facilities and commercial design, 2 seventeen year old boys, a husband, house and a dog. I did not go to school in Europe or NYC. I received my design degree from Kean University in NJ. I always wanted to venture out into residential design and construction. As a matter of fact I have been trying to do it for years, but honestly could never get out of my own way. Lack of confidence has always been the reason, but I decided 2019 was going to be the year that I was going to do this. I can do my full time job with my eyes closed, my kids will be going off to college and I just felt that this is the time for me to do what I always wanted to do. Better late than never.

I decide to create a website and get an email address. I created the website all on my own and most can probably tell. A millennial that I truly adore tells me I need to set up an Instagram account so I can get a following. That advice stopped me in my tracks. Let me tell you, I am not a fan of social media. I don’t like putting myself out there at all. It’s not comfortable for me to talk about myself, my kids or anything going on in my life. Posting pictures of myself horrifies me. Needless to say, the Instagram account gets set up. I submit a couple of posts and start following a lot of designers and some social media influencers.

Social media is not for someone with little confidence. All of the designers I follow have beautiful photos of interiors, shopping excursions, and trips to Europe. They all do beautiful work and I aspire to be like all of them. However, right now I have some sad little pictures, some are mine and others are random shots of Interiors I find appealing. I still can't seem to get the hang of it, and posting has stalled but I am ready to get back in the game. I have just finished my first paying job and planning on posting the pictures. It's a small job but it's my first.

I am not really sure what this blog will turn in to or who will read it. I am definitely not a writer and not a photographer so I apologize now. However, I a am going to try and make the Instagram account more true to who I am and what I am passionate about. I am thinking that the blog will be a place for me to talk about my journey with this new venture. I think it could end up being therapeutic for me. This could come in handy especially in a world where because of HGTV and social media, designing, flipping and renovating homes, looks so easy.